24/25 weeks – Mom Guilt

Thank goodness for those annoying  informative BabyCenter/What To Expect emails or I’d never know how many weeks have passed! I was just telling Asaf, “you know, she’s the size of an eggplant now.” and he said “Eggplant?! What happened to mango?”. “We missed it, Sweetheart.” We missed it. I literally don’t know where the last weeks have gone. At times I wonder, am I missing out on my entire 2nd pregnancy experience? That leads me to today’s topic: Mom guilt.

There are many days I find myself thinking that I’m just not prepared for Baby Girl. And I can’t help feeling like that’s because I haven’t taken the time to really focus on my pregnancy this go around. Don’t get me wrong -I feel the (constant) kicks, I frequently browse the girl section of Baby Gap and I text possible names to Asaf practically every other day, and yet – I can’t help but feel like I’m cheating her somehow.

And speaking of getting cheated, what about my little Liam? I’ve been wondering more and more, will he resent our newest addition for stealing his parents? (I know you must be thinking “It’s a little late for that now.” You’re  absolutely right.) I figure this kind of thinking must be the equivalent to getting cold feet before your wedding day. Of course, I’ve talked to Asaf about all of this (mostly at night when he’s trying to sleep). He says a sibling is the best gift you can give a child. However, it should be noted that this is coming from a guy who was literally born as part of a set (he’s a twin) so he’s never known any other way. This came up on my Instagram feed yesterday and made me feel a little better.

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Anywho, onto baby updates! During the past two weeks, Baby has been growing lots of hair! She now has a full set of eyelashes and eyebrows and of course, hair atop her head!  Her nostrils have begun to open up which allows her to practice “breathing” even though she won’t take her first breath for another 3 months. She weighs just less than two pounds now but, boy does she know how to make her presence known!

Earlier this week I was called back in for some additional scans of Baby’s heart which was a little scary. But luckily, they were able to get the angles they were missing this time and it didn’t take nearly as long. We even got an additional shot of her face! She’s a cutie that’s for sure!

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Week 25 update:

Total weight gain so far: 19 lbs

Cravings: Nothing too exciting to report unfortunately. I’ve officially reached the point of pregnancy where there is a LOT less room for food which can sometimes make eating a chore.

What I’m excited about: As we approach third trimester we are getting much closer to choosing a name!!!. Also, baby received a sweet gift in the mail from my long distance friend Gaby yesterday.

What I’m nervous about: I’ve postponed Liam’s return to daycare for a few more weeks. I blamed it on his recent illness (croup again! This time with a tonsil infection!) But really, I think I’m just being selfish! 🙁

New this week: I’m fairly certain that Baby Girl is no longer breech. I feel her low in my belly whereas I felt Liam’s head up and under my rib cage from this point on. As a result of her location, my belly button has “popped”!!!

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Weeks 17-23 Because I Suck At Blogging

Over the last few weeks, I thought about blogging several times. I also thought (a lot) about abandoning the whole project. But, I feel like I must keep on, no matter how behind I’ve gotten. Not for me, for her. I want our daughter to have these entries — to know that she was just as important, just as loved as her big brother. But, as you can see, it hasn’t been easy! We’ve been pretty busy! Let me fill you in…

We went to Israel again! This visit was especially nice because we got to celebrate Hannukah and Asaf’s Dad’s birthday. Also, we have a lot of friends there with kids around Liam’s age and we really got a kick out of watching them play and interact together for the first time. The trip itself was a lot of fun and in case you’re wondering Liam slept during 90% of the flights (score!!!). BUT, I do have to admit that we did have our challenges. It took Liam 10 days (out of 13) to adjust to the time change…and a week to adjust back. Heavy sigh.

Christmas came and went. Asaf got sick and then Liam got sick. For Christmas Santa brought me a superb immune system, which I’m crediting to prenatals, and stuffed A&L’s stockings with plenty of Kleenex.

Second trimester anatomy scan went well. Our little Ladybug measured 14oz with a strong, steady heartbeat of 145bpm.  During the last few weeks she has been doing so much growing and by the end of this month, she will have doubled in size! It’s strange to think that her skin is still translucent but on the ultrasounds, she looks great! At our last appointment, we even caught her  yawning (awwww)!

Liam is also going through a growth spurt! He’s pretty much eating us out of house and home lately but, I’m so thankful that he isn’t a picky eater. Last night we had sushi and he ate eel, seaweed salad and shrimp tempura! He’s also sleeping well and has finally adjusted to one long daily nap. Every day I am shocked at how big my little boy is getting and how much he is starting to resemble his Aba!

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I just love this face!

Week 23 update:

Total weight gain so far: I’m up 17 pounds now which is 4 more than I gained at this point with Liam. To be honest, I’m shocked it isn’t more! 😛

Cravings: This girl is a bad influence! Over the last few weeks I’ve craved rice krispy treats, bean burritos and french fries! With Liam I was dreaming about french toast and nectarines!

What I’m excited about: Baby girl is kicking all the time and I just love it! Asaf has been able to feel her and thinks she might be a future soccer player!

What I’m nervous about: Soon Liam will be transitioning back to part-time daycare. I’m hopeful it will go smoothly but, always find myself preparing for the worst.

New this week: Scouting out diaper deals. Time to start stocking up!

Note to Baby: We love you so much and are constantly thinking/talking about your upcoming arrival. Please know that my lapse in entries does not reflect lack of thought. Xoxo Baby Girl!


 

10 weeks

Baby is 10 weeks today! This week it is the size of a kumquat! While we’re all out here enjoying this unseasonable “Fall” weather, he or she is inside, forming tiny finger and toenails this week! I’m sure this baby will come out with long claws, just like Liam. I had to cut his nails the day after he was born!

At my last doctor’s appointment, we were able to check out Baby #2 on the ultrasound machine. And the most incredible thing happened! It waved at us! We were so surprised and only slightly weirded out! Asaf and I looked at each other, unsure of what we saw but, even the Doctor said “Hey! Baby is saying “Hi, Mom and Dad!” We discussed a tentative c-section date of April 21st but, it’s likely things will progress a little sooner. We’ll just have to wait and see!

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This coming week I am going back to the doctor to listen to Baby’s heartbeat and also have some blood tests done. Then, in just a few weeks, we’ll be in second trimester territory! Woo hoo! That’s when we’re planning to tell all our family and friends the news. I am sure everyone will be so excited!

I am mostly feeling good although there are times when I feel something best described as motion sickness – a little nauseous and slightly dizzy. It’s kind of ironic since, unfortunately, I’ve been a bit of a lazy bones lately. It seems there is so much to get done and what I want to do most is take a nap! Asaf has been picking up the slack by cooking more, taking over dish duty some days and taking L to daycare in the mornings.

I am most hungry in the mornings and not very hungry in the evenings although I’ve been forcing myself to eat something anyways. The thing that sounds the most appealing now is gummy bears! Other than that, trying to remember to drink lots of water and take my daily vitamin. I’m gaining weight – maybe three pounds so far – mostly around my mid-section but, I had forgotten how awkward this first stage can be. I definitely don’t look pregnant yet but I wouldn’t be the least surprised if some are wondering if I’ve begun to “let myself go”. hahahah

10 week update:

Total weight gain so far: 2-3 lbs? This is an estimate since we haven’t replaced our busted scale yet.

Cravings: Aforementioned gummy bears

What I’m excited about: Second trimester is just around the corner. I can’t believe how fast this pregnancy is moving along.

What I’m nervous about: The dizziness is no fun. Hope this doesn’t last.

New this week: It’s just about time to start moving into maternity clothes!

Note to Baby: Nice wave! I see you’re an overachiever 😉

Third Trimester Check-Up – 29 weeks

While America celebrated a birthday this week (no, it isn’t 2014 years old) WE celebrated week 29 of preggohood! And as an added bonus, my sister Sophia came to stay with us over the long holiday weekend. Sophia is 5 (and 1/2) and she is a character! When Asaf and I first started dating I used to babysit her a lot and as a result, she’s known him practically as long as she’s known me. Weekends with her are always an adventure. This time around we took her to Hurricane Harbor (a water park). We scored big time as our friends Leslie and Kevin have season passes and were able to bring us in for freeeeeeeeeee! She said it was the bestest day EVER.

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Yesterday we had our 3rd trimester check up at Cedars. The Dr. there told us that Baby is measuring one week ahead of schedule! Currently they estimate his weight at 3lbs 6 oz which puts him in the 55th percentile. Unfortunately, Baby is still breech but, they said that most babies move into the correct position between 32-36 weeks so I shouldn’t be too concerned. Did you know that only 4% of babies don’t turn at all? I haven’t done my own research on this (maybe I don’t want to know if this isn’t true) but it was comforting nevertheless. Lastly, they couldn’t give us a clear shot of his face yesterday which really bummed me out. He was hiding behind his umbilical cord. A camera shy baby? Oh no, that just won’t do!

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Our not-so-great 3rd trimester sonogram pic

So this week Baby is supposed to be the size of a butternut squash but it seems he’s already ahead of his time! We’ve gone ahead and moved onto pineapple status! And over the next 11 weeks, he’ll more than double — or even come close to tripling — his weight! I don’t know how he’s going to do it. He already seems to be pretty squished in there!

My 29 week update:

Total weight gain so far: 19 lbs.

Cravings: My Mom read my blog post from last week and was appalled at the amount of $ I spent on cherries. She bought me 4lbs of them!!! No other cravings. Actually, I’m having less of an appetite lately. I always feel full. 😦

What I’m excited about: Currently planning a babymoon! I’m really looking forward to a quiet little getaway before our little guy makes his big arrival!

This week’s rant: Dear Victoria’s Secret, Please give a girl a break and stop sending me weekly catalogs! I am in no mood to see beautiful (and possibly malnourished) bikini clad models. My giant melon boobs have no use for your currently featured “bralettes” and my trunk is currently packed with junk that will overload those “cheeksters” you keep talking about. Semi-annual sale or not, you are getting to be quite depressing!

New this week: Lately Baby has discovered that my bladder can be used as a trampoline. Although I’m supportive of his need for recreational activities, I’m living in constant fear of wetting my pants! Not funny Mister!

Note to Baby: This week I had a dream that you came out while I was on my way to our baby shower. (In my dream) I was mildly surprised but decided to just wrap you up and bring you along. I’d like to think this indicates that I’m prepared for anything and not just that I wouldn’t let birth get in the way of a good party. In any case, please no surprise appearance at (or on the way to) your shower. Thanks!

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A sneak peek at our mango! 19 weeks!

Today we had our anatomy scan at Cedars! We were there a  bit longer than expected (2 hours!) but all in all, it went great and that’s what matters. For those of you who don’t know, the anatomy scan is basically an ultrasound visit. The sonographer captures dozens of images and measurements including (but not limited to) baby’s brain, heart, arms, legs and stomach. Oh, and if you want, they confirm baby’s gender (in our case, definitely still a boy!). Once we were done, they printed some pictures for us to take with us and the Doctor came in to discuss the measurements. She said our baby looks fabulous! (That’s a direct quote!) He’s about 12 ounces now and everything looks totally normal. Whew!

We’ve been staring at this picture all day…is it September yet?

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3D Ultrasound at 19 weeks 6 days

 

Aside from today’s excitement, we’ve been busy settling into our new place. We bought a dresser from Ikea last weekend and then proceeded to spend an embarrassing amount of time putting that thing together! We’ve also been exploring the neighborhood  by taking long walks in the evenings that occasionally include a stop at Yogurtland.

Some low points this past week include my second bloody nose (I really hate those) and INSANE leg cramps in the middle of the night. I’m not sure what to do about the nosebleeds but I’m drinking even MORE water, eating some bananas (for potassium!) and stretching before bed in order to avoid future painful wake up calls from my calves. Wish me luck!

Highlight for Baby this week: Our little mango is starting to growing hair!!!

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And of course, my 19 week update:

Total weight gain so far: Scale says 8 lbs. Feels like 18!

Cravings: Yogurt. Greek, Yoplait or frozen. I’ll take them all!

What I miss: Runny eggs. I loooove burgers with a fried egg on top or poached eggs atop Eggs Benedict or Pasta Carbonara BUT I haven’t indulged since finding out I’m preggo due to possible risk of salmonella. 😦

What I’m excited about: Next week is the official halfway point! Yaaay! Hope to feel some baby kicks soon. Still waiting patiently!

New this week: Previously mentioned leg cramps and some sensitivity in my gums when I brush my teeth.

Note to Baby: You are such a cutie! Daddy says you look just like him 😉

 

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Moving (and an avocado) – 16 weeks!

It’s been a big, BIG week for The Urielis! As you know, we had an exciting ultrasound last Thursday (horrible, painful blood draw followed by an exciting ultrasound). Aside from the big gender reveal, we got to hear Baby Boy’s heartbeat again. Strong and steady at 160 bpm and Doctor says his measurements are right up to standard (11.8 cm = 4.15 inches). Once again he was VERY active during our ultrasound. I have a feeling that this little guy will definitely be keeping us on our toes!

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Doing a little elbow to knee action!

Our avocado sized little one is doing more than the macarena in there too! His little heart is now pumping about 25 quarts of blood each day(!!!), and this amount will only continue to increase as he develops. 1396845564503 In non-baby related news, we got the keys to our new condo yesterday! We took the first set of boxes over last night and are moving in little by little throughout the week. Hoping to have everything done by Saturday. I’m officially a Valley Girl! Like, totally! 😉

Here’s my 16 week update:

Total weight gain so far: 5-7 lbs. Even though our bathroom scale still says 7, my Doctor said according to his records, I’ve only gained 5. Who am I to argue? 😉

Cravings: Sunday I was *seriously* jonesing for a corn dog. Can someone please tell me why Wienerschnitzel doesn’t deliver?

What I miss: NOT being sleepy. I sometimes nap after work and I’m in bed before 10 most nights. I can’t wait for this elusive 2nd trimester “energy boost” to kick in.

What I’m excited about: Blood work from First Trimester Screen came back normal. Moving into our new place! Passover dinner next week with friends. Furniture shopping! Getting back to the gym. (Asaf made me say that last one but I guess it’s still kinda true)

New this week: Stuffy/runny nose. Not sure if this is due to allergies or rhinitis of pregnancy. Annoying regardless of the source.

Note to Baby: Hope you like our new home! We’ll be working on your room soon!

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We’re going going, back back, to Cali Cali (15 weeks)

Yes. I wrote that title.

After a really wonderful and relaxing trip, we’re back in California! (In case you were wondering, my first meal back was taquitos and they were delicious!) Israel was great! As mentioned in my last update, our main priority this time around was spending time with family and friends and most importantly, celebrating Asaf’s brother, Eyal’s marriage to his new wife Jenya! I am truly thankful to have married into such a unique and loving family and I’m excited to welcome another member into the mix!

Post updated to include family photo. (Photo credit to http://www.photographing-life.com) Surprisingly, I fit into my original dress choice! Yippee!

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This week we have two doctor appointments! One for follow-up blood work and one for an elective “gender peek” 3D ultrasound. We went back and forth about whether or not we should wait until our 20 week anatomy scan to find out the gender, but in the end, our impatience won out. If all goes well, we’ll know if we’re expecting a baby girl or a baby boy (now the size of a navel orange) by Thursday afternoon!PhotoEditor_.1396404430258

Although I don’t have the reassurance of baby kicks yet (I MAY have felt “flutters” Sunday night  but I can’t say with certainty that it wasn’t just gas), I definitely look (and feel) pregnant now. In the past few weeks my bump has “popped” which has resulted in a lot of belly touching by friends, family and even strangers! I fear stretch marks so I am constantly rubbing cocoa butter and all sorts of other potions, lotions and oils on my rapidly expanding body. At this point, it would probably be easier to dip my entire body into a tub of Palmers.

Baby has started to practice breathing, sucking and swallowing this week. By now, the ears are positioned on the sides of the head (they used to be in the neck!) and the eyes are moving from the side of the head to the front of the face. I find myself dreaming about what this little face will look like!

Here’s my 15 week update:

Total weight gain so far: (((drumroll))) 7 lbs! Wow! When did that happen?!

Cravings: Cold fruit with lemon, salt and chili. Edamame.

What I miss: Spicy tuna sushi rolls. Smoked salmon and cream cheese on a toasted bagel. 10152747_10203671937986094_1864216738_n

What I’m excited about: Long, strong nails! Avocado and tempura sweet potato rolls which make missing REAL sushi a little less sad.

What I’m nervous about: Having blood drawn this week. I hope they don’t have to poke me too many times. 😦

Note to Baby: Please cooperate so we can see you Thursday! Now is not the time to be shy! Mommy wants to start shopping!